I’m not a sister!

Well, ok, I’m a biological sister but not a religious. I answered the door today to a delivery man, and after dropping off the shopping, he said “Thanks Sister”! I know I wear a gert big (at least to me) cross but it’s really nothing like the crosses worn by either the sisters or the novices. I’m trying to work out whether this is a complement or not. I think it is. I mean, I’m barely old enough to be a novice let alone a fully fledged sister. I’m really quite happy not being a sister, but still being here. I do have an official title/role here but it is quite a detached one. It’s still not like being a guest, although some guests plan their stays to me more like my kind of stay.

Had another reflexology session today. It is an interesting feeling, it makes my feet warm and fuzzy and just generally nice. I also agreed to try and clean the ‘horse’ today. I fell asleep instead. It’s good to know I’m still living up to my other internet name.

I appear to be the resident computer expert at the moment, which is something of an interesting situation because I’m never really sure what I’m doing, but I fixed the machine, at least for five minutes. I don’t know what they keep doing to them.

Lately I’ve been thinking that I should start to think about what I want to do when I leave here. I came up with what I thought was a cunning suggestion, at least for a year. This being a typical Jo variety of cunning plan, I have yet to find out the feasibility of the idea and really decide whether I want to do it. I was getting quite set on the last bit. Yes, I probably do want to do this but I need to check how realistic the idea is. I was looking at the paper to see if there were any vacancies for this particular job, and I nearly had a heart attack. There is a vacancy. Good, I thought. Then I read it. Then I nearly had a heart attack. The fact that I would need a degree was very worrying. Why would I need a degree for the job? But what really took me back was the fact that it was both in the worst place imaginable, for the job in question that is.

I’ve also had another idea of an interesting (not entirely unrelated) job but that would be a *really* interesting twist to things, but I’d guess that I’m not qualified enough for that one either.

Having reconciled my studying issues I had pretty much decided for a number of reasons, mostly financial, that I’m not going to be a student full time again. Part time study is always a nightmare as life gets in the way even more than with full time studying. The jobs I’m now becoming interested in require graduates. Typical. If I were to go back to full time study there is at least another 2 years (taking it to 5 years studying and a 1 year break) and if I carry on part time it will take another 5 years. I mean, I wasn’t in a hurry to graduate, but this is just taking the mick. There’s no point saying I wish I could have completed the course the first time round because I didn’t. It’s typical that I’m considering this again. I’m hopeless at following through on decisions. At least on the positive side, if all my searching for jobs leads to jobs which require a degree I might have enough motivation to get a degree by the end of the exercise. Grrr…

Anyway, on the really positive side I’ve been doing uni reading today too, so I’m far less behind. I MUST write at least a first draft tomorrow. I’ve still been keeping my lent things but I really want something sugary and sweet now. At least I can tomorrow. It’s sherry trifle after lunch because it’s a special occasion. I’m sure it’s doing me good. Folks here keep remarking that I look like I’m losing weight and that can only be a good thing. Went to compline tonight. It’s changed a little for lent and I was worried that the hugely extended silence would be a bad thing but it really isn’t. I’m actually really appreciating the silence which is something I thought I’d never say.

Must right essay, but not now. I should do lots of reading then go to sleep. I overslept a little this morning so wasn’t where I was supposed to be on time, but then I also slept this afternoon so I’m not so tired now.

Note for Jellyfer: I’m listening to Moulin Rouge 2 through my headphones. Spectacular Spectacular and the Bolero. Remind you of anything? It certainly reminds me of good times.

Watched Donnie Darko again. Last time I watched it was the first time I’d seen it and it’s really weird. Didn’t do much better with it this time. I think I’ll stick to Shrek or Amelie, both feel good films.

MUST READ….