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The reasons I’ve not been writing much…

Are somewhat complicated but worryingly mundane. I’ve been doing too many things. I’m involved in an organisation (which I’d rather not name) that has hit a rocky patch and whatever is decided is going to hurt someone and so it’s making decision making hard.

Decision making on an entirely different front – I heard back from four of the 6 jobs. I’ve had one rejection, which didn’t surprise me, and three offers of interviews. I’m not planning to stay in this city for much longer so have been applying for jobs elsewhere and while this does have its good points it makes getting to interviews something of a challenge. This is tied into the previous post. I have two interviews next week and one the week after. As I am a temp atm I need to work in order to get any pay at all due to complicated holiday structures. It means that I need to make the trip at least twice. The interviews are in two different organisations and each have their pros and cons. I’m not sure which of two jobs I want most. Assuming I get offered any of them.

The sisters are being really supportive and it’s brilliant. I’m going to be away so much over the next few weeks and, theoretically, there isn’t long before I leave. I still need somewhere to stay but I’ll deal with that after I have got myself a job. I really hope things go okay otherwise I really am going to be stuck. I can’t believe how fast time is going now. It seems only yesterday I was thinking that it was only half way through and I needed to start looking at the future. I must be getting old. One of the sisters, she’s 90, keeps saying how fast time goes by. At least I have a few years to go before I get to 90!

I have also agreed to chair another committee for another organisation I’m involved with. I must be mad, but is should be good fun (at times). As long as things don’t need doing during the day time over the next fortnight! I think, with the exception of the days I’m away, I average two events per day. The majority of those are work days too. Who’d have thought a year ago I would be complaining about how little time there is for things?

Understandably the website has moved onto the backburner. It is still under discussion and a work in progress but I still need time to actually do it and to meet with the sisters. That sounds a strange thing to say that I’m struggling with but it is true. With Sundays having a different timetable to the other days, until today I hadn’t had normal lunch with them in about a fortnight. I’ve been out, ill or busy every day. It’s mad.

I have found the last few weeks very affirming and positive. I’m about to embark on a whole new chapter of my life and I’m finding it worryingly unscary!!! Okay, next week it might be different but even now it still seems okay, ish.

When I first came up with the plan I spent a long time looking for reasons why it was a bad plan and none of them were prohibitive so two months on, here I am. I really hope things are going in the right direction, but only time will tell.

*Yawn* Must get sleep before interviews.

Night

*Yawn*

It’s been an interesting day here in the convent. It’s been Associates day, and now I really am outing myself in relation to the community on the internet. The website was mentioned to the associates who are got to look at it and some comments may follow from one or two of them, which will be appreciated. It means that soon all you lovely folk will be able to see it. I desperately need to make a few corrections to it.

It’s actually been a really nice day despite the fact that I’m so, so tired now. I was worried about today as there were going to be a few more people than normal, like about 4 times the usual number and so I wasn’t sure how I was going to survive. I did fine apparently and the associates are a really lovely bunch who really seem to have a great deal of affection for the Sisters and that’s brilliant.

I did end up being asked to talk to everyone after receiving no warning but it was okay and I survived that too. Apparently it was good so that was okay.

It’s really kind of worrying that I have so little time left here and it will be such a shock to the system not being here but I’m also not sure I can do it permanently. I’ll think about that nearer the time.

It’s been a good week actually. I’ve been able to spend more time in the house this week and have been feeling more spiritual too, and I haven’t even been drinking. Much. Work want to keep me for a while, counselling went well, today went well, I read yesterday at the Eucharist and that, too, went well.

I’m still appreciating my new crockery and feel sorry for all my housemates, sisters and others, who have had this stuff presented to them with a great deal of pride. Mum wasn’t so impressed though, although it doesn’t matter.

I applied for 6 jobs last week too, and requested information for a number of flats. I’m actually doing pro-active things which is something of a shock to the system.

Anyway, 20-something minutes til supper and I need to collect some thoughts. Don’t know where from but…

Me and my bright ideas

I have plans for the future and they’re bright. But definately not orange. Blue, Green, Pink and Purple but not orange. I’m thinking of going and living out in the real world (which this isn’t really) on my own. Having been a student I have a collection of odd things scattered all over the country so I was trying to remember what I have and haven’t got. I didn’t have plates. The three I’d aquired from charity shops didn’t last the two years I was there so I needed some new ones and now I have some. I bought enough bowls and plates to legitimately call it a dinner set. A 20 piece dinner set unless cups and saucers are seperate then I have 24!! I’m all happy. Sad isn’t it. The Dinner Plates are blue, the side plates are pink, the pasta bowls are green, the olive bowls (the names they give to things – who has olive bowls?) are purple and two of the cappucino cups and saucers are blue and the other 2 are purple. It’s great even though I think of them as big bowls and plates, small bowls and plates and cups and saucers. None of those funny titles. They were in the sale too so they should have been roughly £97 and I paid £30. It’s great. Can you tell I’m pleased?

I’m going to apply for another job or two depending on what I see and things are looking up. Especially as things get back to normal here tomorrow. It’s been a retreat week in the house which means I’ve been confused. Not that it takes a lot.

In my infinate wisdom I’ve agreed to make a banner for an organisation I’m involved in. This is a good plan except for the fact that I have to make it, well I did agree, and it needs to be made by Greenbelt if possible. I’m trying to find cheap but suitable fabric for this venture and you wouldn’t believe it could be so complicated on the internet. I know that it doesn’t normally make sense to buy fabric on the internet but I’m trying to cost the thing while waiting for updates to download. I’m sure I’ll get there in the end.

Last weekend I bought anti-virus software complete with firewall and all the extra jazz. It’s been really fascinating to track where people are trying to access my computer from. Everywhere from Boston to Lambeth and Moscow to Hong Kong.

Anyway, it will be nice to talk to the sisters again tomorrow.

Computer worries and blonde visitors

I’m getting a visitor today, assuming she arrives here in one piece. A fellow blogger should be headed in my general direction to stay for the night. Saying that, the night may be well and truly underway when she gets here.

I’m still trying to assess the future. I think I’ve worked out how much I would need to earn per year in order to make the plan happen. Can’t decide if this is a good thing or not as I’m still not sure how much I like the plan.

This morning the 2 twenty-somethings were helping (well…) in the kitchen. It did remind me of comments made by Smudgie about how helpful the Smudgelets can be at times. I did feel sorry for the cook. One of us was going round saying “my tummy hurts” and the other looked asleep all morning. Not a lot got done. Well and truly mature, we were. Honest. Oh well.

My computer has decided to play up again. This is not big, smart or clever. I’m having problems with the anti-virus software so I thought I’d download it again and that is expected to take nearly 3 hours. Last time I tried it wouldn’t work properly. I’m also trying to get my hands (metaphorically) on my emails but the daft programme is trying to download them all since day dot. This could take a while. Oh for broadband again.

Living with nuns can be great at times but it is always weird getting back into things again. I’ve been back a week now and still feel somewhat muddled about what is going on. I’m sure I’ll get used to it again.

I’ve been invited to a big party in Manchester soon and must try and sort out accommodation and see if I can afford it but I’ll see what happens.

Anyway, off to look for visitors…

hopefully…

I’m back now

Made some decisions while I was away at home. I’m originally from an area of the country that is struggling to join the 20th century and my 24 hours at home reassured me that living there is a really daft plan. This was progress as I thought it was other things that drove me round the twist. Covered about half the country in my week off and had a generally good time. Very tiring tho.

Since I’ve been back I’ve failed to make it to office, something that will definately change tomorrow. I did have a session with my spiritual director earlier in the week. It was very interesting and things came up regarding the future that I certainly hadn’t considered and would have immediately ruled out if I’d come up with them on my own. They aren’t necessarily looking like a bad plan either!!! I’ll not rush into it, but I won’t rule it out just yet.

I’ve got a friend coming to stay for the night tomorrow. The first of my friends to be made enough to stay, only my mother has managed that so far. And only the second to come and visit. I hope she’ll survive the nun experience.

I might try and write again quite soon, but then again I might not.

Night

Easter in a Convent

Having gone from a low church non-conformist background to a relatively high church Anglican order has taken a little getting used to, and over Holy Week and Easter I was aware of just how little I have traditionally done at this time. It wa a little intense from the end of Maundy Thursday as it should have been. Friday was all silent, well, mostly. I was worried about how I’d survive this but I found it really good. I would have appreciated more sleep over the weekend but that was partly my fault as I was frantically trying to write a website. The website was really appreciated and they seem really enthusiastic about getting the right content on there. I’ve decided in this respect that I will let people know where to find the information if they want to see it. I’ve decided I’d rather people found out about the Community than am bothered about hiding my identity. I may live to regret this tho.

Yesterday was lovely. We had a luxurious dinner and had the opportunity to have drinks before and after the meal. I think the drinks were very welcome after lent. When folks were eating meals yesterday they seemed very pleased to be eating things like marmalade, chocolate and salt. The things we give up for lent, eh?

I’m back home now so thought I’d make the most of the internet access here. It’s much better than in the convent. I’m away somewhere else tomorrow, but I had a cunning fall back plan the other day. My time at home is making me think that the idea wasn’t so good after all. The thought was that it may be a good plan to come back home and live with my family again for a couple of years to sort out student debts and things but within a few hours of being home I’d decided this wasn’t for me. I really hope ‘else’ turns up.

It will be an interesting few days anyway but I’m back with the Sisters by the end of the week.

Happy Easter

For Easter I made the Community a present. I’m not so good at craft things really. I made a website, but there are two problems for me…

1. The content. I think the Sisters need to write this.

2. *My* online identity. WHEN it’s live, I’d like to share this with folk, but it indirectly means letting people know who I am and where I can be found. Not sure this is a good plan, but then if I do more people might find out about the Community.

Ho hum…